Bus thoughts.

This is why I love Wifi busses. They let me abuse their wifi as long as I'm on the bus, plus it goes straight to Southwoods; which would get me home 2x faster! Finally, a bus that caters to my needs :))

Anyway, the La Salle - Ateneo game earlier was so intense, I decided to stay in the condo to watch it with my roommates and friends. We were so noisy; it was so much fun! I wonder how we'll be when we watch the game together. We haven't really done that :(

 This game reminds me so much of how I miss my best friend, Khey Ceeh. We were such big fans of Ateneo during the era of Fonacier, Tiu, Intal, etc. I miss watching and spazzing with her :(( And it's so ironic how I used to love Ateneo but I ended up studying in the sister school of DLSU.

Oh on a different note, the traffic in EDSA-Buendia is terrible!

Roadblock

For days I've been figuring out and trying to organize my mind on what I want to write here. And every time I come up with something, I always run into a roadblock. So I guess I'm just gonna go random and write what ever is on my mind at the moment.

Right now, I'm still trying to contemplate my decisions for the coming months. It's going to be crucial but I still can't spill anything about it. All I know is that if everything works out well for me and if it actually pushes through, I might be on my way to RI by fall, next year. It's going to be a very hard decision but I know it's also an obvious one.

I'm just praying for everything to work out so I could stop living nervously *-*

This feeling.

I'm excited. I really am. Though it may not be obvious to everybody anymore, I am excited in my own way. Frankly, I want to yell at the top of my lungs because I missed them more than anything. You guys have no idea how much. But I can't shake the feeling that if I go back to that space, I'll get lost in this feeling again. They do have an effect like that. And yes I'm writing pretty vaguely tonight because I don't want to cause anything by putting everything out there.

Being what I was is pretty exhausting but I love it. I still love it but I guess my priorities are more important to me right now. I know I have a lot of responsibilities also but being in my position right now, it's really really hard to keep tabs on everything. Especially when you're taking on 6 major subjects and all of them have equally crazy amount of work to be done by the end of the term.

I don't know. I'm not ranting, I just needed to let this out. Some people maybe wondering why I've been so out of the loop and MIA most of the time. So here it is :]

/I was about to write about my adventures at UST the other day but I guess that's for another day heehee/

Baby Boy

When I was a kid (I can't say 'little' since I never really grew that much. Haha.), I had a group of friends that I thought would last forever. But I guess as we grew older and went to different high schools and colleges, we started drifting apart. Now after a few years, I bumped into one of my childhood crushes in our street last Sunday night. I can't say who but he isn't in my group. He's a bit older and he had a different set of friends in the village but he's definitely connected to us.

I bumped into him as I was about to buy something in the store and there I noticed that he looked so... old and tired. But I know that he's still in his early 20's so I thought that maybe it was stress from work. We exchanged a few hello's and how are you's and as I was paying, he said that he'll walk me home. I was giddy inside, to be really frank. Hey it's not every night that some one gets to walk me home. Plus he's my crush :))

He asked me about college, my course and generally about life. We talked so much about me that I almost forgot to ask about him. We sat down on the gutter in front of my house and I decided to ask about him. He had that bittersweet emotion on his face when he started saying stuff about family, school and friends, but as he revealed about his son, his face became soft, carefree and happy.

To tell the truth, I was startled when he started talking about his son. I wasn't ready to hear him say that, because I guess, to me, he's still that cute 16y/o that I've been crushing on since forever. But as his stories go deeper and more serious, the more I realize that he's still trying to cope with everything. He started telling me stuff about his life after his son was born and how hard it is to take care of his "wife" and son; how he's so envious of the people around his age being free of this responsibility. He loves his son. He's very sure of that, but he also wanted a free life, well maybe for a few more years before having a kid but what else can he do?

I wanted to comfort him but I don't know how. It's not like someone's always spilling their guts to me in this kind of way. So I really don't know how to react. He decided to trust me and I know my hug will never be enough to show him my support and all but at the same time in my mind, I wanted to slap him and yell that he should've known better. But who am I to do such thing? I feel like a bad friend.

I know that he knows better now. And hopefully this isn't the first and last time we'll talk. No, it's not because I still have a slight crush on him (haha), but because it sure seems like he needs someone to just listen to him. Maybe someday I'll have the courage to smack some sense to him--or maybe just tap some. Hurting him wouldn't really do justice to this whole thing ;)

Weird.

Around this time last night, my roommates and I felt hungry and randomly decided to go to the Ministop in the next condo to buy some chips and drinks. When we entered, I almost fell because I tripped on the door all because I saw my crush (who also lives in our building :P) buying some chips there... wearing sando and boxers.

I don't really know him nor his name and we only see each other in the lobby of our building most of the time so it was kinda awkward. I think he also felt awkward and shy because when I looked at him and he was looking down and then he looked at me and I shyly looked away. I swear if other people actually noticed us, they would seriously think we were idiots.

Anyway I just needed to let this out because I've been feeling giddy about that since last night. It made it hard for me to sleep because I kept replaying everything that happened in ministop. And yes, I know I sound really ridiculous.

Haha. Good night.

Rainy Tuesday

I've been listening to Maroon 5's Overexposed album for a whole week already! I love every song, or at least the ones that aren't remixed. Don't get me wrong, I love remixes but when you have 4 or 5 remixes of one song in an album, sometimes it gets too overrated. Nonetheless, I love all the other songs! I swear sometimes I wonder why they made Payphone their front song when there are so many other wonderful songs inside, like, Wipe Your Eyes, Daylight and Beautiful Goodbye. But that wasn't what I was supposed to write. LOL.

Yesterday, our college decided to suspend classes at 1:30pm due to the heavy rains that poured all over the metro all day. Frankly, I thought CSB wouldn't suspend classes until after 3pm. Let's face it, this is CSB. They're usually the last one to announce anything. It didn't help that I was also feeling a bit hesitant to attend my night class yesterday because I still hadn't finished my 2DANIM plates, but either way, I really don't have any choice. I only have a little over 6 hours to finish 4 more plates for midterms. Luckily, they did suspend the class and we're all a little bit relieved that we still have at least 24 hours to finish our midterm plates.

But of course, since we already planned something for the Tuesday break beforehand, Tihn still pushed through with her birthday surprise for Jackie. She bought Bonchon for us to pig out on and after Jackie got to the condo, we ordered KFC and somebody went down to buy ice cream while the rest of us watched Zombieland. Talk about finishing my plates. Hah.

Eventually, everything has to end and we were all left to our midterm requirements again. Hey, I was able to finish my WEBDEV images just in time. That should count for something :))

Still in class.

So I thought that my group will fail our Sound Design midterms. We didn't know that we should've submitted our script yesterday because he said that he'll be teaching us radio script writing this week. So imagine our surprise when he said that he wanted to see our script when we entered class. As one of the only 2 girls in a group of 10 members, I was really scared. Especially when I'm eligible for a plus .5 on my finals grade. I was REALLY scared.

But, you know what they say about underdogs, they do always have a way. I think I just made that saying up. Being up against another group who's very competitve by just the looks of them, we feel very inferior. It also doesn't help that the impressions about the boys in my group are rowdy and just plain naughty. Stereotypical.

But thank heavens because we finished a funny script and tracking in less than an hour. We'll just edit it and add sound effects and then we'll be done! Yayyyy IN YOUR FEZ NYAAA!

On another note, we're still waiting for a suspension announcement from our admin. It's been raining like crazy since this morning when I left the condo. Pleaseeee let it be good news ;))

Ramblings.

Recently it seems that whenever I go back to blogger, the first thing I seem to write first is, "it's been a while" or "it's been so long.." and I promise to change and stop neglecting my blog. First step to that is changing the dull layout to something light and relaxing to the eye, Pink and White! Yes, I know it's girly. Sorry, my girl instincts are kicking it today. And 2nd step? I don't know yet. Probably post something new everyday :)

The 2nd part would most probably be hard since I just recently (and temporarily) moved out of our Mandaluyong house and moved in with my friends in Taft. We're still figuring out how we'll avail wifi for the condo, so we're pretty much relying on downloaded tv series and homework's to entertain ourselves.

I can't believe I just said 'homework's to entertain ourselves'.

Anyway, it's been a almost a month and a week since the term started and I think I'm about to go crazy from all the heavy requirements from my majors. I'm taking up all 6 majors right now and I swear that I've never been busier in my life. Okay maybe I was exactly as busy last December because of Kcon, but you get my drift. My point is, I'm going crazy.

And I have to prepare and leave for Taft now because my roommate will go all paranoid if I'm not yet there by 7pm.

Lata! :)