Stupor.

I don't know why but, recently I feel so apathetic about everything. Like I'm just floating in the air and I don't have anywhere to go. I should be feeling happy because things are going the way I want them to but somehow, something is missing and I don't know what it is. I would be really great to know what it is so that I could maybe get out of this stupor and be productive once again. I hate not being productive.

It's like I just really don't care. But I should. It scares me because it might backfire and I know it's going to backfire like shit. Argh. I hate feeling like this.